Like most of us in my mind I feel as young as I did when I was 20. My body on the other hand says differently. I can see 50 just around the corner and no matter if you are 20,30,or 40 50 seems old. I seems old to 60 and 70 year olds. You just can't pull young off at 50 the generation gap starts to really show at that point.
Wife and I at the beginning of our marriage decided not to have kids. We've spent the better part of our lives together building a home and working. We have traveled some but not as much as others. We have lived for the moment not bothering to save much for a rainy day but we have great memories. We were talking the other day about what we would say to each other if we somehow had to convince one another who we were because we were not recognizable. A memory that only the other would remember. For me it would be so easy. There are so many. I had to give her some examples and then she agreed too. She's always been the forgetful one.
Both my grandfathers died when they were in their early 70's but both of them had smoking related illnesses. My grandmothers died at 84 and 90 the younger of breast cancer. So I figure I have at least another 30 if not 40 years left in me. Hopefully I can take care my health better than I have so far.
So what does the next 30 years hold? I'm not sure. I wasn't sure what the last 30 did but it has been an interesting ride. In fact I didn't think that much about my future then as I am now. But now I ask questions like...where will I be living, who will I know, where will I be working, what will be my financial situation, and mostly what will Wife and I be doing together then?
I don't consider myself a depressed individual. At least not in the clinical way. I'm sure I have the same ups and downs of any normal person. While writing these thoughts down I'm sure it sounds all gloom but I'm always optimistic and hopeful about the future and thankful about the past. Just being a little introspective which doesn't happen that often.